8/11/09 01:15 am
The past few weeks have been nothing short of amazing. Walking back in step with Christ is the best thing that ever has happened to me. This time, it's genuine, it's real, and I don't ever want to turn back. I've seen things that I'd never think would be possible happen so naturally that it's almost hard to detect. I've found a community of people that challenge me in ways I've always wanted to be challenged. Christ Fellowship is my home, and it feels so good to say that after years of feeling left out in the cold. I want nothing more than to live in the word of God. Parties, weed, trying to be the smartest person in the room, living life the way I want, all that shit didn't do anything for me but leave me unfulfilled and hateful. I'm so glad I've found something that gives back even when I don't feel I deserve it. I know some of you probably think I'm full of shit, but I don't care. I finally see things as clearly as I've always wanted to, and I'm more than grateful. The best part is I didn't really do anything but let God work things out for me. It's worked out marvelously.
In other news, I felt really terrible today. Getting used to the odd things that the meds do is a little harder than it looks. My typing and thoughts has been quite erratic and sometimes I feel like the meds are making me dumber. They also wear me out quite easily and give me headache sometimes. But I know they're working as well. Plus, not being able to feel truly sad is really weird. I'm glad I can't live in sadness like I used to, though. And I feel a whole lot better. Read a bit and the things I read really gave me some insight and clarity. I even wrote a poem!
I'll spare you the reading unless you want to.( Read more...Collapse )
So, long neglected livejournal, I just wanted to tell you how well I'm doing. I hope you're well, too.